St. Elmo Serenade

“Position yourself so you can
See the mountain,” He soothes.

Is this the fracture point?
It’s been this way before,
And will be again.
Maybe.
Certainly.

Doubt is good.
Keeps me from thinking I am
God, makes me listen.
Certainty is good.
It is the best part of us shedding blood
For someone else, for something true.

Certainty can be deaf. Bled dogmatic,
It is the end of
Relationship.
And doubt cripples.
I must resolve,
Against fatigue within and cries without,
To do the grocery trek
So I can cook dinner
For my ocean-tossed children.

So I do.
And there at the foot of the wine-lovely mountain
A fine woman,
Lends me her coupon card for my
Chuck roast, and we talk
About our children. And my heart weeps.
And hopes.

“Position yourself so you can
See the mountain.”

There is a mountain, Oh Lord.
Open that rock and river us.
I see
You.

 “He opened the rock, and water gushed out; it flowed through the desert like a river.”
Psalm 105:41

In An Oven-y October: What The Water Says

In an oven-y October,
Tolkien’s waning of the year,
Hush and hush and listen closer;
Hear the water through the sere:

“It’s all
Clear
All of it
Especially the
Frosted-glass, distorted
Mystery.

It’s all
Manageable
All of it
Especially the burden
Pressing hard on the bruise.

It’s all
Walkable
All of it
Especially the scouring road,
The abrasion, the raw hide.

It’s all
Art
All of it
Especially the colors of the trees and of
The days you drive away.

It’s all
Beautiful
All of it
Especially the singing at
Her funeral.

It’s all
Irreplaceable
All of it
Especially when we arrive
Empty-handed, not even a succulent
For the kitchen window.

It’s all
Temporary
All of it
Especially the night time,
Because the sun does what
The sun does.

It’s all
Worth it
All of it
Especially the exchange which only
Begins with a giving up.

It’s all
True
All of it
Especially the part you repeat to
Yourself with a tremor and a gulp.

It’s all
Breathed
All of it
By the Trust Worthy”

Sings the water.

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